Still hard to believe Lilly has been home for just about 6 months now. Where does the time go?
This month on Instagram there is a series called #knittogetherbyadoption and each day has a new prompt, today’s prompt is Learning Curve.
I can honestly say when I thought about what most would call starting over..it kinda scared me..I mean, I’m not 20ish nor 30sih..I’m 40ish. YIKES!!!
I’ve mothered, I’ve grand-mothered, (yes, I am a grandma to 3, and yes I was a teen mom…that’s another post for another day) so this should be a cake walk.
I will admit..there is something about being a mom before to littles, that the instincts kick in.
BUT!!!!! There are days when I am sitting here, I’m like WHAT DO I DO!!!! Someone help me.
I second guess things daily, from what I should instill in her..when should I incorporate educational things, should she eat
eggs this early…peanut butter…oh my gosh what about peanut butter..are they suppose to have peanut butter. If I give it to her and she breaks out in a rash
then what do I do..YES, those kinds of things run through my mind alot.
But in those thoughts, I am a bit more calmer in my thinking, then say, when I was a first time mommy to my grown girls.
The great thing now is, we have internet, cell phones etc..so I am just one click away from texting a friend, googling it (yes.. I google things).
But most of the time I go on mommy instinct. I really try not to beat myself up to much about anything. I don’t have time for that these days.
I will say the biggest thing for me to really get use to is not having that free time I had before..there are just some things I hate doing with a child in arm.
Like the Bank
Post Office (evil place)
Grocery store for a big grocery day
and those days where you have a gazillion errands and you feel like you are taking child in and out of car so much you could possible blow a disc in your lower back
and because you haven’t had little’s for so long, you have a really small car so you hit your head a hundred times a day getting child out of car. Yea, I don’t like those days.
So, yes there has been some learning in this process…
Oh and now I am going to be a mommy of a 3yr old BOY…boys scare me (not really, but they do kinda)..
I have a 12yr step son I still can’t figure out at times (most times).
I will have some major learning to do..but am beyond excited for a little dude to call me mommy..I guess I better start liking dirt, lizzards, trucks, boogers
and big amounts of energy.
Through all of this the one constant I have to go to is The Lord, He is the one that gets me through the days when I can’t seem to get it together.
When I question my abilities..He always reassures me, that I am doing exactly what He has called me to do and I am doing just fine.