These last few weeks have been nothing but short of a miracle.
Seriously there are times when all I want to do is run away. SO the miracle is that I DON’T!!
I am so ready to go get our daughter..to hold her in my arms and love on her and to just tell her how much we love her…to bring her HOME forever.
Yes, adoption is alot like pregnancy in the fact that you do alot of waiting etc.
BUT I am going to be honest…pregnancy is alot easier..at least it is for me.
Adoption is lonely..I mean REALLY lonely. Unless your blessed with friends whom have gone through it…
People don’t abandon you when your pregnant. (usually)
When your pregnant you get to touch your belly everyday and feel your baby, with adoption you get to look at pictures and videos (if your blessed to have those)..I have been known to kiss my iPad screen at times.
I do have the weight gain…I am not known to be an emotional eater but man oh man..have you seen my butt lately..WOWZER!!!!!!!
I live on different time zones all the time..didn’t do that with pregnancy.
I check my email every 10 mins from about 4am – 11am EST. to see if there are any updates. Which I guess, is alot like pregnancy and having to go pee every 10 mins.
I cry at the drop of a hat..again like pregnancy.
There are days I just want to get in bed and not get out.
There are days when I am so overjoyed I can barely sit still. (those are on picture or email update days).
BUT the hardest part is feeling like no one cares..maybe it’s me. I don’t know.
We are in a complete different part in our lives and just trying to figure out where we fit…there are the 20-30 somethings starting their families..there are the people are age that are going to their kids high school graduations..we still have that yet to do with Luke and Mya..I already did that with my girls.
DO the 20-30 somethings want to hang with us?? MAYBE.. Do the people out of the small child stage want to hang with us…Not looking like it..
I know God is going to use our family in a way we won’t be able to comprehend…we have know this from the start. I am excited to see how He will orchestrate this…but I know it’s big. So we wait.
We are so blessed and so honored to be called by God to be the family for our sweet girl…I can’t imagine being anywhere else at the moment.
But I won’t lie it’s real hard at times…I mean HARD.
God has it all worked out…we just need to hold on.
I will apologize if I have committed to something and forgot..if I haven’t called or texted..I am known for taking on to much at times. This is what is happening now..there’s alot going on that I can’t share on here..not having to do with adoption…but it’s all at the same time…so overwhelmed over committed is where we are right now. I won’t even get into trying to raise the remainder of the money……Please pray for us.
SO…that’s kinda it in a nut shell, if any of this made sense at all. Yes…I have a very scattered brain and my thoughts and typing don’t always go hand in hand.
I know God has this..He has us in the palm of His hand..He will sustain us. He will provide..He will comfort only like He knows how.
To GOD BE THE GLORY in all of this…it is HIS STORY to unfold. I Just need to have FAITH..He will get us through…and to her very soon.