I’m going to apologize before we begin..I just might be long winded here…don’t say I didn’t warn you, JUST SAYIN!

I think it is safe to say we all have BUCKET LIST…you know the ones where you list things you want to do before you croak.  Here are some of mine..

1. Run a marathon-CHECK ..CHECK.. CHECK..

2. GO on safari

3.Visit every island of Hawaii-CHECK

4.Own a Horse-Check

5. Live in the Country with wide open space

6. Skydive

7. Swim with Dolphins-CHECK

8.Have and ride my own motorcycle-CHECK

9.Go to Italy

10. Walk on the Great Wall of China

You get the picture..

Something has really been laying on my heart the last few days about our trip to Uganda.  I believe (this is my belief, not necessarily what all people feel by any means, I know, NOT everyone feels this way)..but Missions Trips can be a bucket list item for some, to make themselves feel better.

I am not saying this is bad, but what are our intentions when we do go on a Mission Trip?  Is it to check  it off as a feel good thing to do, or  are we doing it to truly help, to have our hearts forever changed and to keep going back and to truly make a change.  It’s NOT about us, it’s about HIM…bringing Glory to God and helping those that are less fortunate to see the Hope of Jesus.

Going to Uganda is NOT a bucket list item for me, this is Gods plan, so how could it be a bucket list item for me.  I never would of thought a year ago God would be calling us to GO and Adopt.

I have asked God to break our hearts for what breaks HIS.  To use us, to show us where and how HE wants to use us, while we are there and when we get home.

I have prayed lengthy prayers, to not let me come home and forget, but to have my heart burn to return and to FOREVER have Uganda and it’s people in my heart and thoughts and to do something for the Lord there.

God has shown me/us things HE wants us to do for Him in Uganda, something’s I can’t seem to wrap my mind around, because..well you know we have stuff here..Like kids who have a mom here, the business, house, you know all those logistics that can get in the way.  BUT we serve a HUGE God and he can make anything possible.

I mean I have my bags packed, I am totally prepared to stay (now my husband might beg to differ on his end)..God has broken my heart while being here in the states..I can only imagine what it will be like once I get there. What HE will show me/us…I am almost afraid I won’t want to get back on the plane to come home.

I seem to question everything that we buy, like a magazine I love to read (can’t get enough of the home decor mags now can we?)..but REALLY…$4.50 for one, that can provide medical care for a child for a few weeks, (I use to buy 5 at a time).

OR..when the kids complain for the 1000th time I don’t like that or can I have that.

I mean how many times do we need to hear I want an XBox, all my friends have one (well then perfect, go over there and play then..lol..JK).

I already pray that once we get back the poor kids will want to lock us in our rooms, due to hearing about how, all- the -children -in- Africa would -love -to- eat- that- big -oh- fat- bowl- of -Spaghetti, NOW EAT IT!.

I know we can’t stop living, but if it is happening now, I can only imagine how I will feel.

I hear/read of so many people going on Mission Trips then coming home and saying I have been  broken and changed forever..When I hear or read this, what does that mean exactly?  Some will come home and do something that will continue to bring God Glory and make an impact; some will go back, some will do things from the states. What will I/we do?  This is all ok, but just don’t loose for a second what made you feel this way.  Go back and visit those emotions and pray and ask the Lord to show you what HE wants you to do for Him in the areas He showed you.

I have asked God to use us RADICALLY!  Now we have to be prepared to obey RADICALLY!!  We as a couple have given our life totally over to the Lord when HE asked us to adopt and GO!!  So now we walk in FAITH in what HE has for us…

If HE  moves those HUGE mountains I see ahead and says go and stay…then we GO and stay. If He says do this for my children in Uganda then we will.  We are HIS hands and feet, were He goes we follow.

SO NO.. this is not our bucket list item…this is God’s Specific Call for us. Boy am I honored.